hi friends! it’s been quite some time…
I just have a little thought I want to share through all the chaos that has been happening. A while ago on a Wednesday, I was supposedly working. However my eyes were closed and I was envisioning what my perfect life would look like right now. I imagined hanging out with friends on the weekend, going out by myself, working hard, achieving all my goals, doing my projects, being close with my family, being generally aesthetic, and eating lots of pasta. Maybe if you closed your eyes, you would imagine something similar (maybe not the pasta one). This, was my ideal life I had in my head.
It’s now on a Tuesday that I’ve realised how much I don’t notice in my current life. I always have goals, and I feel like I’m moving slowly sometimes because I haven’t achieved all of them yet. But I rarely stop and recognise the goals and projects I’ve already finished. I just move onto the next one, and maybe you can relate to this sentiment.
Maybe the things we once wished for become ordinary, and we forget that we ever wished for them.
I realised that my life right now has so much in common with the ideal life I envisioned. It’s just in a different font. Some weekends are quieter, some projects take longer, and sometimes going out just means taking the long way home.
I will probably always be restless to achieve the next thing, make a new friend, finish the next project, and that’s just how I run. But that doesn’t mean the life I’m living now is only a waiting room for a better one. I can want more and still feel at home here :))
a few extras..
- I’m travelling back home to New Zealand next week! I’ll only be staying for a few short weeks with family but I’m excited to write about the sheep I come across. Let me know anything you’d like me to cover x
- new september album in gallery!
till next time <3